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Worry…
…is all I do. When we first started going out, we both had friends of our own. And as time went by, we both lost them, but she lost more. 2.5 years later Ive regained most but she really hasnt. She wants to go out and make new ones, and I want her to do the exact… just having to do so without me worrying. Whats the deal with the worry,worry you ask? 2 stabs to the heart, scarred for life. I can say one was my bad but the other wasnt and was the worst. I guess being cheated on twice and trying to regain trust for that person is one the hardest tasks to accomplish, I guess you can compare it to another such as trying to lick your elbow. I want her to be social and have friends and hangout…..I just dont want to lose her, again. I love her so much I just want her all to myself all the time. I need to learn how to trust. At times,I know if we werent together, she’d be happy. Happy to be in others company, happy to be around a group rather than the same old me. I guess you can say I want to have my cake and eat it too. I guess forgetting the past and moving on is easier said than done.
Love hurts but Im trying.
